Dawn Rising Sun

Due to that incident, somehow my mind shift and I always can’t be as happy as I was, well I still would smile to people when I see someone I know in company, though I am not sure if that smile show my happy or sadness, I just think that is still a smile.   However, I got a facebook message from a friend as below: recently you a bi quiet... be more happy ... your smile always like shining sun, willl cheer up me...hehe.. is true, i like to see ur shining smile... I think she doesn’t know my grief, but she feels my quietness and unhappy, then encourage me to cheer up, somehow I felt touched, perhaps I should go out from my cave, my unhappy smile doesn't show me happy and this would create distance to everyone. A friend told me, if I am continue to be unhappy, I can't make any change to future or even make myself harder to achieve the thing that I want. SL also always worries about me for being alone because I would think something bad that time. For myself and for othe...

SL went to Joey Yap’s talk and he told me that Joey Yap said the people who got a dragon in his birth detail is abled to learn new thing and easily pick it up. Coincidently there is a dragon in my birth detail, would I be enabled to learn something new and interesting? SL also asked me to learn something so that I can get rid with that grief memory. The people like me that like to see and learn new thing, of course I like to have try on it, therefore I signed up for a sewing class through a friend’s introduction, I wish that I could cope it and have this new skill, I always wish to make my own clothes, for myself, for SL and for my future kid (though they are not yet formed). After the first class, I found that I got quite some high level of interest on that, wish I could keep it and manage it. Besides sewing, there is another skill which I hope so much to learn and I thought I could never have chance to learn it, but a friend recently told me there is classes for it (is Joey ...

I went to shopping alone yesterday and I found that I quite enjoyed the shopping moment without SL by my side, it is as what I told SL. When SL with me, he would ask what I want and he would move as fast as a rocket to the rack with the item that I want and take it, he would do this until we complete our shopping list. However, that is not the shopping style that I wanted, I always like to spend time and walk slowly from rack to rack until I get the item that I am looking for, besides I also like to look around to see other things that might catch my interest. Obviously, I cannot make it as what I want when SL is with me. When SL heard my description about him, he laughed because he agreed with me, that is his style, I told him that I feel pressure when shopping with him as my feet can never stop and need to follow him. Well, I am not complaint about him but am sharing about our different shopping styles. After taking out all my shopping items, I was expecting SL asked me on a n...

人生总在绕圈圈，有时你饶了几十年才发现当初错过的是你真正想要的，最可悲的是你饶了一辈子都不知道想要的是什么。

After the incident, SL encouraged me to attend some classes, so that I can direct my emotion to somewhere else, instead of always thinking of unhappy memory. Well, I agree, but I have no idea where can I find a class available for me, I like to learn new things and I can say that I got wide interest. Lately, a friend forward me about classes from Tzu Chi and I finally decided to take their sewing class, I always regret that I didn't learn it from my mother when there was a chance and now I even needed to go to shop just to cut my pant shorter. What a good chance to explore the thing that I missed in my past. And today is my first class though it was their second class, the class is teaching to sew pant for these few weeks, it was interesting and I have it in pieces now and it will be combine by next week, I really can't wait for next week class. After getting old now, I just felt that I missed out a lot of chances in past decades, the things that I could learn then, but ...

The Amazing Race is at season 20 now, today is third episode on Astro AXN, this is my favourite TV program,which I don't want to miss but I missed the first and second episodes. In this episode, I saw something that touched my heart, the dating divorce couple Vanessa and Ralph is my favorite team in this season, they seem still loving each other though divorced. The part that I most amazed is Venessa's "never give up" spirit during they were doing stacked up detour, they failed the task for so many times until Ralph suggested changed their task, but Venessa still insisted to complete it, that time I predicted that they would be eliminated finally. At the end, they completed their task at night and move to Roadblock and found that was another team (Elliot and Andrew) doing Roadblock as well, which mean they were not the only last. Eliot and Andrew was the last team completed another detour Strung Out, they nearly gave up but continue, but they finally be eliminated...

事情已经过了一个多月，但我还是一直耿耿于怀，我偶尔还是会想起那件事，我想我变得比以前伤感了，我一个人的时候会偶尔想到不愉快的事，或许我再也不能回到以前那个开朗而天不怕地不怕的人了，一月的事将永远在我的记忆里留下烙印，难以抹去。 我时常叫自己别去想，但有时候真的事不能自已，我从没有那么重的挫败感，就象一个很大的锤子向我身上锤。 可是，也因为这样，我也了解到健康是最重要的，不管赚得再多的钱，有时它也买不到你真正想要的那样东西。 那件事之后，我开始注重健康素质了，我不再喝冷饮、减少穿牛仔裤、尽量晚上不工作、减低辐射、看保健书等等。有时候，我觉得我这样的生活改变好像有点的极端或是神经质，但是我真的不想再有第二次的失败，那是非常伤的，其实精神上的伤害还比身体上的伤害来得大。即使最后身体补回了，那阴影将永远的追逐着你。 但是，朋友说，我应该要开心起来，这样才能好得更快，才能去面对那个我想要的未来。我真的必须尽量学会忘记，这样生活才会好过一些，或许明天真的会更好吧，只要我学会怎样去活出明天。