Dawn Rising Sun

We are just back to Penang, but we spent a really busy week here, for our new home, looking for interior designer and renovation people, then we are also looking for furniture and electric device, it was a tired week for us and I wish that we can just stay at home after we got our new home complete. Well, I was just thinking too optimistic previously, actually it is really a tough period from an empty house to home sweet home, everything talks about money. A lot of apartment and condominium in Malaysia do not come with perfect design, we need to do hacking to fully utilize the space, hacking needs money. After hacking, surely you need to rebuild wall and putting new tiles, that one also needs money. Then, you need to renovate and beautify your home, and this one even needs a lot of money. In the meanwhile, you need to consider piping, wiring and floorplan, it a headache if you didn't plan it before move in and it also needs money. No matter build in or just simply furnishing, kitch...

Finally, I am back, this is the first day that I am in Malaysia, the first thing that made me feel uncomfortable is too hot here, I can sweat the whole day, which I didn't have that feeling for a year. Well, I don't mind sweat but I hate my skin feels sticky, now I hope to return to office sooner, so that I can enjoy air conditioner there. I back on winter, which is the coldest season in a year, and I complained a lot about it coldness and I need to wear a thick jacket which make me feel I am fat. But now, I am back, I don't need winter cloth anymore, but I need to bear with hot weather and burning sun, then I complain again. I think I don't like to be too hot but neither too cold, well... that is no place suitable for me :P

And now, I am on my way return to Malaysia after about a year stay at another country, that is kind of mixed feeling inside myself, something happy, something sad, but I think I just make it as usual, c'est la vie, our life keeps changing. I am happy that I can see my friends and my family again, I will be in a place that I familiar and start my life without too much limitation. We can own our house and develop our next generation. Hopefully, my skin will not crack too much in a moisture land. There we can think more about our future, what we want to plan next. However, I am sad as well for leaving, though my skin cracked I still like the dry weather, that I won't sweat when I walked on the street. I suddenly like the lazy sun, so that I won't get too much sun burn. Also, our life in US is worriless, there is more secured and our expenses are more under control. Changing life, somehow I am worried but it cannot escape, I think I called 2010 as our honey year, perhaps it...

Today is our pack and load our shipment, now our apartment is almost empty, except those we need to hand carry back and those we cannot ship. During shipment survey, the surveyer told us that we actually just took half of space and still can fill more. But, when the packer came, then they told us that we got a lot of stuff and they might not able to take them all. Oh no, that made us felt tension, suddenly regret to ship that speakers. Anyways, finally they took about 4 hours for packing and loading, then our stuffs just perfectly fitted into the provided space, sweat~~~ Then, we make conclusion that sometime surveyer maybe will provide optimistic calculated the space to be used, we only can tell how much space will exactly use during pack and load day, therefore we shouldn't feel too happy when not too much space be used on shipment survey day. Anyways, pack and load almost mark the end of our journey in Oregon, sooner we will say goodbye to this beautiful place and I suddenly lik...

Finally, all our stuff are all packed and loaded to shipping company, the apartment that filled with our memory are almost empty now, though we are happy for going back home, still we feel some mixture feeling inside, this is a place for us and we spent a lot of sweet moment here, the first place for both of us that make us felt like a house (as we didn't own a house in Malaysia yet). A year plus in US, it's just like a dream for us, SL and I lived together in another country and we are still alive, our love grows. Another two days, we really leave this Apartment i, well I am sure that I will miss it, the place with sweet memory. That's really enough for us, at least he and I spent some time of our life in another place, together we live, together we learn. Compared with my lonely and bitterness life in the UK, I am sure US would take more memory space in my brain. Before I came to US, I told SL that I don't like US as I like the UK the more, but now we are leaving, I c...

还记得上次我到英国留学一年多之后回国，我的口袋里还有好多的一元金币，当我到某店购物时想要使用它们时，我才发现一元金币已经被废除了，所以我拥有的那些金币已经无用武之地。那时，我才发觉我那一年多的记忆好像都在别边，所以必须将所有的脱节再度联系起来。 我想这一次回国，我也必须适应一些脱了节的环境吧，槟城已经变成了环保城，我将要付费使用朔胶带，我是支持环保的，但我还是偶尔会忘了携带环保带，希望以后会记得。 听说，马来西亚已经实施消费税了，我都还不知道哪些地方有这些收费，哪里没收，看来以后必须减少消费了，Oregon是个免税的州，所以当我购物是我并不需要运用太多的计算，因为标价就是我该给的价格，看来以后马来西亚人的算术应该会突飞猛进吧。 唱k,一直是我俩很想回国后做的一件事，两年前，梁和我常唱的歌已经不算是新歌了，两年之后的我们，看来将会是唱“老歌”的情侣了，我们跟歌曲也脱节了两年了。 我想，应该还有满多事物是脱节的吧，回国之后，我应该会常问这样类似的问题，他已经结婚了？他辞职了？她怀孕了？那间电关了？这边多了栋楼？ 在外两年，梁的外公去世了，我的外婆也离我而去，好多的事在改变，有些我们可以随时跟进，有些却只有将来明瞭。脱落的环节，总是需要一段时间才能够慢慢勾回。

如果。。。我还在当初选择的时候，我到底会做怎样的选择呢？ 每个人都会有些人生困境或瓶颈吧？每到那个时候，人类往往都会后悔当初做的某些选择，反问自己如果我还能回到那个时候，我还会这样吗？还是我会做另一个选择呢？ 最近，我有时也会有这种想法，如果回到当初我还在选择是否拿假来美国，还是继续工作的时候，我会做那一种选择呢？如果拿假，我现在的生活是轻松自在的吧，或许我们不需要有任何的顾忌，现在也许有个孩子了。只是，回去之后我还能找到工作吗？我还有价值吗？也许，我的生活就不能像现在一样了，让我随时想要购物也不需要太过担心。 如果。。。我还在当初选择的时候，我到底会做怎样的选择呢？ 再回到当初的记忆，我还能选择回国之后，是否要进新组还是回到原队的时候，我会做那一种选择呢？如果我要回到以前的组，我回去之后就不需要烦那个我不想烦的事吧，或许我能够摆脱一些不想做的事。只是回去之后，我还能做什么呢，那里是否已经物似人非了，我可能又将另一次成为外来者，必须从新融入新事物，我会开心吗？也许，我已经不能像以前那样对当初的工作驾轻就熟了，难道我又将要再一次从新开始。 如果。。。我还在当初选择的时候，我到底会做怎样的选择呢？唉，人总是这样左右为难的吧，后悔当初倒不如努力未来，过去无法改，前路要创造，倒不如用当时的经验来为以后的选择做基石，了解怎样的选择得到如何的结果，就避免下次做下鲁莽的决定。