baby

This afternoon, I visited to a friend's house to see thier baby girl, she is so small and so adorable, then I just know that baby will be that small just comes to this earth, but I was worried to carry her because I was not confident that I manage to hold it carefully, I am scared if I would hurt her. This new born baby just arrived to this earth for three months and she is a healthy baby, I think parents most hope for their baby can grow healthy, that is the most important.

Honestly, I like baby, I like seeing those adorable baby, but I would feel nervous to have one of mine, maybe I am not fully prepared yet, it is a big responsibility for having a baby, I am still not sure if I can manage to do it.

Why am I so worried for having a baby? I don't know, I just feel uncomfortable to have one, I think this maybe because of my unhappy childhood, I hope my kids can have a happy family and good memory about their childhood, I don't want them to be same as mine. Well, I know SL will be a good and responsible father, but I am just worry to take risk, I am worried about change.

Anyways, I think I need to relax and let everything just happens as its way and waiting for surprise to come, then I just walk away from shadow and prepare to build a happy family for my kids with my hubby :)